Well, however hard I have tried to remain upbeat this week, it was all for not.  My game just didn't travel with me to Spain this week and I sit at a disappointing 9 over par through 3 rounds of golf without a chance tomorrow even with a world class round to advance to Finals.  It really sucks that it has to come to this but my hopes have been dashed and my golfing season for 2010 comes to a close officially tomorrow after I sign my card.  Once again for the 4th straight year I have not passed the test to improve my rank off the neophites on the mini tours.  I would be foolish to tell you I am an old man, but in the golfing world I am definitely getting older.  So many of my friends I play with my age have made the jump to the PGA Tour and I have stayed in my tracks since graduating college.  I really am a very upbeat and positive person.  I have a zest for life and really am passionate about golf.  However, with such a passion, it can often times be hard to swallow a long period of not reaching my goals and dreams.  One thing I have realized is I would much rather be a struggling golfer than a rich business man that isn't passionate about his/her work.  Not that I don't have tremendous respect for the corporate working class, but I know where my passions and talents lie.  I would be a fool to ever make a career change.  I have always been a late bloomer in golf.  As I graduated high school, I finally found my footing at the national level my senior year and won on the national level.  In college as it has been documented, heading into my senior year, I finally found my footing again at that level and nearly won the US Amateur.  I have now been a professional for just 3 years and 2 months.  The start of 2011 basically will be my "senior year" from a professional standpoint.  If history is any indication, next year there is a good chance I am about to once again find my footing and break loose into the upper echelon of the pro ranks.  I just need to regroup over the holidays and take some much needed time off.  I am very fortunate.  In 2010 alone I have traveled to Mexico, Puerto Rico, England, Scotland, Portugal, Spain, and all four corners of the US in pursuit of my dreams.  Thank you all so much for your support.  I'll keep you updated on my offseason and I can't wait for next Spring when everything starts anew and I begin to pour the foundation on a 2011 destined for greatness.  God Bless.