Well, another Monday qualifier by the wayside and still nothing to show from it.  Yesterday in Cincinnati all stars were completely aligned for qualifying into this week's Nationwide tour event.  The PGA Tour is at the British Open this week, and they have an overlapping event in the states here in Reno, Nevada which allows all the conditional members of the PGA Tour to get into the field in Reno.  This trickle down effect allows all the conditional members of the Nationwide Tour to get into this week's Chiquita Classic in Cincinnati.  Factor in that this is a brand new event in Cincinnati and all of a sudden you have a Monday qualifier that the mini tour players don't know about and all the conditional members don't have to qualify for.  With that said only 70 players teed it up yesterday for 7 spots.  The course had 4 par 5s reachable for me with a 5 iron on each of them and 3 par 4's that were drivable.  Conventional wisdom tells you that is basically 7 more or less simple birdie/eagle opportunities and makes par at the beginning of the day more like 65 for the course.  Well I made zero bogeys yesterday, but parred all four of the par 5's with 5 iron or better in my hand on each of them.  I also squeezed in a three putt par on one of the drivable par 4's, and two violent horseshoe lip out on two other holes.  This equates to par on the score, but double bogey mistakes during the course of the round.  I missed the playoff by 1 shot and drove straight home for 6 hours in a daze after a melt down that left me limping home.  I feel like I have just stepped out of the ring with Mike Tyson.  I can keep preaching to the choir about how I am so close, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.  It is going to eventually come down to me finally just getting over the barrier myself.  I myself can be my best friend or worst enemy.  I have to seize the opportunity myself and no one else can help me do it.  I haven't made a BOGEY competitively in 34 holes of golf.  This is by far the longest streak of my life.  This is proof that my game is more than consistent enough to go out and win a title soon.  It also tells you that PAR in the professional ranks will leave you scratching your head if you don't add in some birdies.  It's all about making birdies, and I feel they are coming soon.  I head next to Waterloo, Iowa for the Waterloo Open.  It is a two day shootout over next weekend where the winner takes home $50,000.  Being this close to where I need to be makes me way more mad than frustrated.  Hopefully I can use this madness to my advantage and take it out on my competitors this coming weekend with a pair of 65s and an oversized cardboard check.