I am sitting here in Scotland in a Bed and Breakfast updating you all with the unfortunate news that I will not be playing in the British Open in 2010.  Above is a picture I took from St. Andrews with the bleachers on 18 as empty as my heart is at the moment.  I have traveled from far and wide to get here and spent thousands of dollars on my journey to turn up a bit short of realizing my dream.  I must say it has been a marvelous trip here in the brief 5 days I have been here.  It was a bit of a spiritual experience I could say getting to play the windswept link of Scotland.  It is just pure golf over here.  None of the fancy clubhouses or any of that other frivolous extra stuff you would find in America.  I have not had this much fun playing golf since I first picked up a club when I was eight.  Though I didn't make it, I realized even more how special this game is to me.  The creativity required over here is second to none and the quality of the course I played rivals any I have ever walked.  Kingsbarns Golf Links hosted the qualifier.  There were 72 participants qualifying for 3 spots into the Open Championship at St. Andrews.  I opened up play in the morning with a two under par 70.  This put me in 6th place and just one shot off the pace of qualifying.  I played so well this morning and had every intention of carrying on my great play into the afternoon.  For whatever reason, I got off to a horrific start on my second 18 and I dug a hole early that I was unable to climb out of.  It was extremely painful to withstand as I watched before my eyes my spot in the open blow away into the Scottish wind with a 78 that left me a distance from where I needed to be.  I only needed to copy and paste my opening 70 from the morning into the afternoon and I would have qualified with a score of 140.  My playing partner Jamie Abbott qualified through and I expect great things from him in the British Open.  2010 thus far has really been tough on me from a results standpoint.  I am on the cusp of breaking through, I just haven't found a way to do so.  This must be my 10th blogpost this year in which I say the same thing like I am a broken record.  I would be lying to you if I didn't admit the travel and poor results really are hard to overcome mentally when things just aren't going your way.  The truth is things are actually going my way, just crazily not quite enough to cross the finish line on top.  It is as if I was in a 100 yard dash and with 5 yards to go I have tripped and fell every time.  95 percent of my execution on the course is spot on, but the other 5 percent is just tricking me up enough at the absolutely wrong times during the course of play that it is hindering me from being successful.  Much of this goes beyond the physical tools I have and delves into a deeper mental side.  I have to have complete belief in myself and the utmost confidence in what I am doing at all times to make this happen.  Right now I know I don't have this with me for all 18 holes of each round.  Once I find this there won't be any stopping me.  I head home tomorrow and then head directly to the PGA Tour John Deere Pre Qualifier in Quad Cities, Iowa.  I know in my heart of hearts I am going to break out soon.  I hope that I can believe it and trust it completely in Iowa.  Thanks for your support.